what we are made to be

Sorry for the absence for the last two months and I apologize for my laziness but I hope you have all been well.

I’m from a hardworking country who is rapidly making life better for so many, but people in the west sees it quite differently, in many different ways too. I’m very glad that they do.

The same as they have been with issues within themselves. I can see the courage in here, the courage to be dissatisfied with what you have, and to make fun of them, and not avoiding speaking out issues that we face. I should have learnt a great deal of that during the first two years as a student majoring in English language. It is not valued any less, I have to say, by the ancient Chinese literature that we learnt in high school.

Politics is Politicians’ matter, and none of us are able to see through what plot is behind it. So disappointed can you be by the media and believe that they are all controlled. But what matters is the way it has made us to be what we are today. They shape such a large part of our thoughts, which come from what we see, what we listen, and, depending on your lifestyle, what we read. You are made, if not controlled, and thus shaped, to be what you are now. There are, unfortunately, no exceptions.

When I watch some of the Games these days, the expressions that athletes competing for different nations have on their faces tell us a lot. Generally the army from the powerful host nation would usually wear a grim look, as if they were ready for a battle, and they look somehow very much pressurized as well, I must say. By contrast I would generally imagine a smile from an athlete from a western team, who would simply see the joy and excitement in the game. They enjoy the game, just like they chose the career of an athlete, simply because they LOVE it.

This is what we can be made to me. I don’t want to me too much generalized on this. But is it fair to say, freedom, even if it is just propaganda, really makes some difference here?

Yes, I can see when the athletes from Iraq paraded in the Bird’s Nest Stadium on the spectacular Opening Ceremony of the Games, the camera (in fact BBC’s) focused on the grim look on the US President’s face, and you can challenge me on this.

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片段

A

世界A对世界B的人说,你们了解我们还不如我们对你们了解得多,有什么资格评判我们如何不是呢?

世界B对世界A的人说,你们连说什么、看什么都被限制着,言不由衷,说我们有偏见,叫人怎么相信呢?

不如给双方一点时间吧。

B

传教士A对同学B说,没有宗教怎么行呢?

同学B说,为什么要非要把一个地方的信仰扩张到与它毫不相干的地方呢?

传教士A说,好的东西怎么可以独自占有而不分享呢?

同学B说,怎么知道你认为好的东西对别人就一定好呢?

传教士A无言。过了一会他说,我知道造字的人用“羊”和“我”组成了“義”字——这跟“我为羊,食我肉”的受难精神很巧合。

C

参加了一个去年患癌离世的本地音乐教师的纪念音乐会,在合唱席上,参与的同时又欣赏了表演。逝者与家人、亲友、同事、学生全因音乐走到了一起,如今音乐又是他们共同的慰藉。鲁特(John Rutter)的歌曲都特别优美,我们唱了他的 ‘For the Beauty of the Earth’, ‘Gaelic Blessing’ 和 ‘Requiem’ (安魂曲)。合唱席上身服装白色,每人胸前别上了一朵新鲜玫瑰花。

玫瑰被采摘,注定明天就要枯萎。太美丽的生命,是不是上主也太喜欢,而被太早地采摘到了一个叫天堂的地方?

我们无从知道,但我们有能力珍惜。

D

她自己下了车,坐回到轮椅上。我忘不了短短几天里脑海中属于她的图景,那双强壮的臂膀支撑着她所有日常运动。她给我写了 ‘With Love From Belgium’ 几个字,  让我感到我那天不小心问她的尴尬问题仿佛全化解了。

轮椅不只是跟我们那副眼镜一样平常吗?

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真相与和解

有多困难。
什么时候,我们想“精神”这个词,首先想到的不是货币符号?

“真的猛士,敢于直面惨淡的人生,敢于正视淋漓的鲜血。”

而我不是,我竟然忘记了。

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听爱尔兰总统演讲

有一个多钟头,也许话题沉重,始终没有穿插气氛和笑话。Liverpool Hope 这次举办的国际青年会议 (Global Youth Congress) 叫做 The Big Hope. 旨在让不同信仰、不同种族的年轻人欢聚和交流,增进了解,让他们能为明天一个和睦美好的世界出一分力。

求求你们千万别笑,站在此地看此地的历史,爱尔兰这个美丽小岛,许多流血冲突,无休止的仇恨纷争,都是这种外人看来很可笑的信仰分岐造成的(至少是名义上,先不管背后“利益关系”如何)。Mary McAleese 夫人1997年继任爱尔兰共和国总统直到现在。今天她给我印象最深的一个观点就是,面对着不断发生的让人伤心的事情,我们无能为力(也许坐在她的位置也无能为力),但需要学会 live with them, and don’t loose faith. 自己要紧紧抱住“一切会变好的”的希望。

她说与希望相对的是同以H字母开头的仇恨,这造成了很多 toxic scenes. 人们 ransack 了对本是同根生的教义的不同理解。目光停留在对方的不同 (focus on differences, otherness of the other)。

她强调教育在化解冲突中的作用。文化和文化间了解了各自的不同后,不应该各人自扫门前雪,过着 isolated 的生活。要主动地相互了解(比“和平共处”更进一步),主动化解双方关系中的毒素 (challenge toxics). keep your hope alive. explore commonality. know one another well.

而且了解并不会让你 lose your own identity. 人们从一个文化走到另一个文化,带来的不仅仅是行囊,还带来了比如艺术等等的文化的各个方面。

谈到了常存希望,她让人惊喜地引用了鲁迅的话“世上本来并没有路,走的人多了也就成了路”。

以上只是我作为活动志愿者,忙乱中做得不是很好的笔记连起来的碎片。

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Edinburgh 一座堡,多少种爱

天气白蒙蒙的,苏格兰的山野崎岖雄伟。走出车站,气温意想不到地寒冷。城市道路倾斜向上,到旅馆安顿好,不用再走多久,发现我们已经在山坡上俯瞰着全城,站在 castle 门前了。

   

建筑,人,无法加以鉴赏,但都被春天的湿气浸润着。很多旅行者,说着不同的语言,在几座坚石砌成的华丽建筑之间穿梭往来,里面展出着丰富多彩的内容:简短的苏格兰历史,这座都城的军事史……这座小山上巨大的城堡,几发巨炮依然直指向外,外面远处是隐约的河口和海。

一小块松脆绵软的 fudge 无比地甜,散发着淡淡的牛油香。这片电影中华莱士的土地,一两小处地方的风笛乐声足以让你产生幻觉以为它到处都有,以至晚上躺在旅馆床上,它还继续在你耳边回响。摸一下商店里那些花格子裙花格子帽,这可能是世界上最暖和的质料。

我不知道晴朗的夜晚,北半天的星空面对着古堡,面对着守卫着这个重镇的几座大岩石山,见证了多少历史。最高的一座 Salisbury Crags,山下面是 Scottish Parliament, 旧址,以及新址(一座现代主义建筑)。

 

我们竟然能免费走进这座2004年建好的新议会大楼,感受完美的游客服务(完美得能让你忘了它是一个政府机构),走进巨大透明的辩论议事厅(The Debating Chamber),以及竟然能有幸走进一个小型会议室,观看十几个议员正在进行的一场辩论,看他们就在你面前围绕每一个细小议题的针锋相对。当然安全检查得都比较严格,从游客刚进建筑开始。

晨早起来,旅馆里的各国年轻身影们开始响动。窗外这座冰冷的城市。年轻,我们才能这样结伴而行。与谁同行真的很重要,我们错过不起年轻。

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monologue from ‘the legend of 1900′

by Giuseppe Tornatore, from wikisquote:

  • ‘It wasn’t what I saw that stopped me Max… it was what I didn’t see.
  • ‘Take piano: keys begin, keys end. You know there are 88 of them. Nobody can tell you any different. They are not infinite. You’re infinite… And on those keys, the music that you can make… is infinite. I like that. That I can live by…
  • ‘You rolled out in front of me a keyboard of millions of keys, millions and billions of keys that never end. And that’s the truth Max, that they never end. That keyboard is infinite… and if that keyboard is infinite, then on that keyboard there is no music you can play. You’re sitting on the wrong bench… That is God’s piano.
  • ‘Christ, did you… did you see the streets, just the streets? There were thousands of them! Then how you do it down there, how do you choose just one… one woman, one house, one landscape to look at, one way to die…?
  • ‘Land? Land is a ship too big for me, it’s a woman too beautiful, it’s a voyage too long, perfume too strong… ‘

full passage here

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伤痛 祈祷

上星期给缅甸捐了钱;

星期一紧张地复习的时候,看到突发新闻;

星期二,我还在给印度朋友讲,中国城牌坊的一砖一瓦都是从祖国运过来的;

星期三知道灾难比预料中严重得多,捐了钱;

星期四看到人在天灾面前的无力,尽管我们有多爱;

不忍睡去,因为一觉醒来,在瓦砾下多少个比我年轻比我有希望的生命又将无声地逝去;

祈祷,2008,伤痛的国度,伤痛的星球;

无能的书生……

 

Nearer My God To Thee

承諾MV : 演藝人協會四川大地震賑災主題曲

愛與希望 – 林俊傑 (512 四川大地震賑災歌曲)

中国四川大地震:让我们祈祷 (China, Sichuan Earthquake:Let’s Pray)

(最后更新 Last Updated: 23:20 2008-05-18 GMT+1) 

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